Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Not alone

When I feel like caving in
My heart, my soul is wearing thin
I just want to give up
And nothing seems at all to add up

Can you hear me, Lord?
My face is down upon the floor
It's then you whisper in my ear
Be still and know I'm here...
--StorySide B, "We Are Not Alone"

Friday, April 25, 2008

Cried wolf

You cried wolf
The tears they soaked your fur
The blood dripped from your fangs
You said, "What have I done?"
You loved that lamb
With every sinful bone
And there you wept alone
Your heart was so contrite

You said, "Jesus, please forgive me of my crimes"
Sanctify this withered heart of mine
Stay with me until my life is through
And on that day please take me home with you

I am the Way
Follow Me
And take My hand
And I am the Truth
Embrace Me and you'll understand
And I am the Light
And for Me you'll live again
For I am Love

-- Relient K, "Deathbed"

Oh God, my heart wrenches within me as I contemplate your redeeming love. Morning by morning, new mercies I see as you form in me the mind that was in Christ. With a mysterious and inexplicable mixture of sadness and joy, I contemplate your cross and your pursuit of me throughout my life. Heal me and mold me; put me through the refiner's fire such that nothing but your holy love remains in my heart. I am on the altar as a living sacrifice to you. Show me where to use what you have gifted me with for your Kingdom. In Christ's holy name I pray, Amen.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Objective?

Gotta love it. At Rotten Tomatoes, "Expelled" gets a 09%, while "Farenheit 9/11" gets 84%. I'm not on board with ID just yet, but this is just too humorous.

Bias? Nah. The media is objective, and so is Michael Moore...right? ;-)

Saturday, April 19, 2008

I need Thee every hour, oh God

"Here then I am far from the busy ways of men. I sit down alone: only God is here. In his presence I open, I read this book; for this end, to find the way to heaven. Is there a doubt concerning the meaning of what I read? Does anything appear dark or intricate? I lift up my heart to the Father of lights. Lord, is it not your word, 'If any man lacks wisdom, let him ask of God?'"
-- John Wesley


The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

He restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
-- Psalm 23:1-3


"I am the vine, you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing" -- John 15:5

Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.


I weep before you, oh God. Trusting in you is so difficult. I feel the pain of this world, and yet I see your great love for me at every stage of my life, even before it finally broke through my heart only a year ago. I cast my cares upon you, only for anxieties to build up again, finding me yet again on my knees. Do you love this world? Do you love those I love, those who don't know you and are headed for destruction? Can I trust that you will do what is right, that you deeply desire the prodigals to come home? Can I find my sufficiency in your grace, such that I might be wholly content with your presence and will? I am so weak, but in my weakness your strength is made perfect. Conform me to your image, oh God, and let this hour of testing be your perfecting work in me. Fill me with all faith, hope, love, joy, and peace. Give me your perfect calm; let me be still and know that you are God. Abide in me, and I will abide in you.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

The problem of evil - for atheists?

Perhaps the most frequent and potent objection to belief in God is the so-called "problem of evil." If an all-good, all-powerful, and all-knowing God exists, how can evil exist, especially to the degree that it does? There's no doubt that the problem of evil is a difficult issue, both intellectually and emotionally. Thanks to the work of Alvin Plantinga, it's almost universally recognized that the logical problem of evil has been significantly solved. The evidential, or probabilistic, problem of evil is where the debate lies today. And, of course, both moral and natural evil are always wrenching existential realities for all of us who live in a world that often seems like a veil of tears.

But it seems to me that the problem of evil is far more poignant on an atheistic worldview. If atheism is true and God does not exist, we are trapped in a world of gratuitous, pointless, and unredeemable suffering. What's worse, we can't justifiably call it "evil" from a naturalistic point of view, for in nature, "whatever is, is right." Human beings are just relatively advanced animals, scratching and clawing at each other in the brutal game of survival of the fittest. So not only is there no redemption from our pointless and gratuitous suffering, but there's also no real grounds for genuine moral outrage at such horrible evil. This is hell.

Compared to this nightmarish view of reality, I prefer the worldview in which God Himself suffers alongside us in Jesus Christ, ready and willing to set right man's own inhumanity to man. Forget the problem of evil for theists - the problem of evil for atheists is intractable.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Some aphorisms

My friend Adam (blog: Existential Faith) has encouraged me to begin collecting my allegedly original quips and quotations, so here are a few:

"Those who think well, live well."

"The history of theology since the early church is not one of invention, but emphasis."

"The substance of Christianity is to love God and one another by grace through faith in person and work of Jesus Christ, who is the God-Man as well as the second person of the Triune God - Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. The rest is gravy."

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Sunday pain

Why do Sundays continue to be so difficult for me - especially rainy Sundays? Dreary, depressed, downtrodden, drab, despondent...and probably lots of other "D" words could categorize how I feel on days like today. It sort of feels like God "lets go" of me to some degree on Sundays and encourages me to more actively rely upon Him for strength, peace, and joy. The black cloud from which I was saved begins to form overhead. I am still held up, though not as firmly, "afflicted in every way, but not crushed, perplexed, but not despairing" (2 Cor. 4:8).

From whence comes this heaviness? Let it pass...

Friday, April 11, 2008

Rain

What is it about rain that drains my spirit? Almost invariably I feel heaviness on rainy days. If it's raining when I wake up, I know I'm in for a day of dreary feelings as well as weather. I suppose I should look to rainy days as God's perfecting grace in me. They encourage me to lean more fully upon God and His grace for all of my joy and peace. Perhaps they are a shrouded blessing?

Like Paul's thorn in the flesh, I can take these times as opportunies for Christ to be more fully formed in me: "But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me" (2 Cor. 12:9). "After you have suffered for a little while, the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself perfect, confirm, strengthen and establish you" (1 Peter 5:10). "Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials,knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing" (James 1:2-4).

Thursday, April 10, 2008

There (but for the grace of God) go I?

Today in chapel we had an "interesting" lecture on sin and empathy. It began well with a theologically informed analysis of sin in the Christian tradition: we have Pelagius, who defined sin primarily as a voluntary act, and we have Augustine, who argued that sin was more of a deep-rooted state out of which our disobedience cannot help but flow without grace. God must, therefore, take the first initiative in salvation. As a Wesleyan, I heartily affirm this strong view of human depravity resulting from the grevious Fall of man into sin.

Yet it is precisely because I am a Wesleyan that I was rather troubled by the remainder of the lecture. We've all heard the phrase "there but for the grace of God go I," right? Well, apparently, a more truthful rendering would be "there go I" - that is, evidently, Christians are just wretched sinners like everyone else. We are sinners before we are Christians, and we remain sinners after we become Christians. And, it was argued, because of this fact we ought to empathize with sinners above all else since we are all in the same boat after all. Now, maybe the speaker expressed himself poorly, but this was the message I got, and I got it loud and clear.

Is this the Gospel? Is this what Jesus Christ shed His blood for - so that we must remain under the power and dominion of sin? What exactly is the Gospel in this view? Freedom from the guilt of sin? If so, we have landed in the mire of antinomianism in which sin itself in its damning power is converted rather than the sinner. Forgiveness is no doubt important, but it's only half the Gospel. Forgiveness and justification without repentance and regeneration invariably leads to cheap grace that prophetic voices like Wesley and Bonhoeffer so rightly deplored: "But if, while seeking to be justified in Christ, we ourselves have also been found sinners, is Christ then a minister of sin? May it never be!" (Gal. 2:17).

The New Testament does not ever call Christians sinners (sin defined as a willful disobedience - James 4:17); it always refers to them as saints, which means "holy ones." "Such were some of you, but you were washed, but you were sanctified, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and in the Spirit of our God" (1 Cor. 6:11). "Truly, truly, I say to you, everyone who commits sin is the slave of sin...So if the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed" (John 8:34; 8:36). "The one who says, "I have come to know Him," and does not keep His commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him" (1 John 2:4). "No one who abides in Him sins; no one who sins has seen Him or knows Him. Little children, make sure no one deceives you; the one who does righteousness is righteous, just as He is righteous; the one who does sin is of the devil; for the devil has sinned from the beginning. The Son of God appeared for this purpose, to destroy the works of the devil." (1 John 3:6-8). The passages abound. Sin is foreign to the normative Christian life, and whenever Paul encounters it he is very clear that those who practice such things "will not inherit the Kingdom of God" (1 Cor. 6:9). " Become sober-minded as you ought," Paul admoninshes us, "and stop sinning; for some have no knowledge of God I speak this to your shame" (1 Cor. 15:34).

One might argue that Christians do not want to fall into sin, but nevertheless they find themselves falling into it over and over again. But how is this not still bondage? How is this not still being under the dominion of sin such that falling into temptation is basically considered "normal?" How is this not devaluing the seriousness of sin, not to mention the efficaciousness of God's liberating grace? This is the experience of Romans 7, a pre-Christian state properly speaking, in which the will is divided between two allegiences: "For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want...For I joyfully concur with the law of God in the inner man, but I see a different law in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin which is in my members" (Rom. 7:19; 7:22-23). But what most people miss is that Paul goes on to give us the remedy for this wretched condition of slavery: "Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord!" (Rom. 7:24-25a). It's time to move on to Romans 8, where Christ has "set you free from the law of sin and of death" (Romans 8:2).

Now, am I saying that Christians who have been truly born of God never disobey God throughout the course of their Christian life? No, but I am saying that the proper Christian life is characterized by liberating grace with sin as the grave exception to that norm. Even though for those in Christ the flesh with its passions and desires has been crucified (Gal. 5:24), we are free to go back to the cross and revive him if we please. If we ever do fall into temptation and willfully disobey God through a failure to walk in the Spirit and appropriate the grace of Christ through faith, our Christian life is immediately put on hold and we must do our first works of repentance to be restored to the favor of God. In such an instance, we have a right to claim the promise: "if anyone sins, we have an Advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous" (1 John 2:1b). Nevertheless, John's purpose in writing is still "that you may not sin" (1 John 2:1a). God will always graciously call us back because that's who He is, but the point is that there is an immediate rift. It's not a small matter, nevermind being a regular pattern! Sin is so serious that we cannot continue our Christian walk until we make it right. That's how serious sin is: "And if your eye causes you to sin, pluck it out. It is better for you to enter the kingdom of God with one eye than to have two eyes and be thrown into hell" (Mark 9:47).

To be free from the power of sin is both the standard and the promise of the Gospel. It's a standard because God is holy: "Christ indeed cannot reign, where sin reigns; neither will he dwell where any sin is allowed" (Wesley, "On Sin in Believers"). It's a promise because God is loving and has provided freedom from the power of sin through Christ as a free gift to be received with the open hand of penitent faith. "Without holiness, no man shall see the Lord," either now or in eternity (Heb 12:14). There is no straddling the fence, and there is no trying to serve two masters. Either Christ is our Master, or sin is.

Indeed, "there went I," but by the grace of God, "I no longer go." We should always be humble and remember both our past sin and our ever-present need to depend upon the Holy Spirit moment by moment for freedom from being enslaved by that carnal nature that often gnaws ever-so-subtly within us. But to say "there go I" as if Jesus makes little to no difference in our lives is to misprize both the seriousness of sin and the power of grace. It's a theology rooted in unbelief, not Scripture. I don't doubt for a moment that the only difference between those who belong to Christ and those who don't is grace. But that grace does indeed make a difference. At least, it did for this debtor.

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Simple-minded believers?

I have a hard time taking seriously those who decry religious believers as gullible or simple-minded. I would maintain that most people are unreflective about their reasons for espousing the particular beliefs that they do, unbelievers and believers alike. Most people take things on the authority of others, not on the basis of a critical analysis of the evidence. At least unreflective believers purport to know God and be living for Him; unreflective unbelievers are generally apathetic toward ultimate questions as they go on living the unexamined life largely for themselves.

I know too many brilliant Christians and too many simple-minded unbelievers to buy this (mis)characterization of religious folk. The history of Christianity is filled with great minds, despite what neo-atheists like Richard Dawkins blithely and ignorantly assert. At any rate, "The foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength" (1 Cor. 1:25). On God's worst day and your best, God still outguns you.

Some deductive arguments about Calvinism

1) To love a person is to desire their ultimate and eternal well-being
2) The Calvinist god desires and consequently causally determines the reprobate to be ultimately and eternally damned (which he needs to be fully glorified)
3) To be damned eternally is not to be well
4) Therefore, the Calvinist god does not love the reprobrate

1) A holy God hates evil and would prefer His creatures not to sin, should that lie within His power
2) On compatibilist premises, it does lie within God's power to causally determine creatures to refrain from sin and freely love Him and each other forever
3) Nevertheless, the Calvinist god determines evil to occur (because He needs evil to be fully glorified)
4) Therefore, the Calvinist god is not holy

Okay okay, last anti-Calvinism post for a while, I promise =)

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Limited Atonement is blasphemy

The clearest affirmation of the New Testament is that Jesus Christ shed His blood and offers its benefits to every single person. The references to unlimited atonement are so numerous that to quote them exhaustively would be to quote most of the NT. Calvinists will be ashamed when they meet Jesus and tell Him how they taught and believed that Jesus did not die for all people. Did Jesus shed His precious blood for the sins of the whole world just for some of his own people to limit His saving scope and intention? How can God not be offended at those who deny the fullness of the provision that God bought with His own body and blood?

Limited Atonement is blasphemy. There is no other word more fit to describe it. It strikes at the very core of the gospel and of the God of holy love, and should be dealt with accordingly.

Inflammatory? Yes. True? Absolutely.

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Where there is pain, there is Christ

I don't care no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually
What you'll do

I don't mind
I don't care
As long as you're here

Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same

Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
And in between it always seems too long
All of a sudden

And I have the skill, yeah I have the will
To breathe you in while I can
However long you stay
Is all that I am

I don't mind
I don't care
As long as you're here

Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's always the same

Wrong or right
Black or white
If I close my eyes
It's all the same

In my life
The compromise
I close my eyes
It's all the same

Go ahead say it you're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same
-- Sick Puppies, "All The Same"

Listen to the pain in these lyrics. You can just feel the brokenness and the twistedness as he pines after true love - love that can only come from the God of love. Look what a mess we've made of love. Having cut ourselves off from the Source of love, we try to pursue it on our own terms, only to be entangled in misery. We try so desperately to find happiness, joy, peace, and love...and yet it always eludes us. What we get instead are broken relationships, pain, anguish, and whatever shreds of true love we can garner by our own efforts.

It's in honest and real pain like this that Christ enters and stretches out His nail-pierced hands. Those who are self-satisfied and fake have no room for Christ. They don't even realize how badly they need Him. They're probably closer to hell than the worst prostitute or the most notorious drug addict. Pain like this brings tears to my eyes and anguish to my heart, for I was once in that suffocating prison. There is a Savior waiting to save you - why will you die? Oh Lord, won't you melt their hearts as you have melted mine? Won't you break down every barrier that they might know life everlasting in your Son? Use me as an agent of your redeeming love. I lay myself before your cross. Amen.

"In this alone can you find the happiness you seek; in the union of your spirit with the Father of spirits; in the knowledge and love of Him who is the fountain of happiness, sufficient for all the souls he has made." -- John Wesley

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Creation testifies


The heavens declare the glory of God;
the skies proclaim the work of his hands.

Day after day they pour forth speech;
night after night they display knowledge.

There is no speech or language
where their voice is not heard.
-- Psalm 19:1-3


I found myself gazing at the beauty of creation again when I was walking my dog today, and I thought to myself, "How can anyone think this is just a spin of the wheel?" Such a thought can only be categorized as positively irrational. The beauty of our universe, not to mention its bare existence at all, desperately cries out for an explanation.

Dare I suggest that the best explanation is God? I dare.